Thursday, December 9, 2010

I am Trying

I have to admit it
I am not sure that I want to
but maybe if I do
it will be my step towards recovery

I  after many attempts
am still not in the Christmas Mood
4 batches of cinnamon glass candy
about 100 chocolate truffles
and 3 batches of fudge
have not moved my soul one bit
rather a notch on my belt
le sigh,....

I wish the songs that I have forced to fill my ears
would bring me to a place
of Christmas Time
A Place of Jingle bells and smiling  faces
Yet I find myself shoveling heaping spoon fulls of cheer down my wee throat
Praying that Joy will soon be here

Now my final attempt starts now
I will make my grandfather's favorite cookie

Even though the thought of being away from him
during this season
makes me weep
like a lil' child with a scraped knee

Boo for me


  1. Did that fudge recipe work well? :-) We've been watching Christmas videos on YouTube -- that's helped me get into the spirit.

  2. Oh honey, I know you're baking with a heavy heart. Turn up the Christmas music really loud and have fun.
    xo jj

  3. ummmm for the record I scratched and sniffed and licked my monitor over those truffles missy!!!! I so hope you find your Christmas...huggers sweetness