Wednesday, December 22, 2010

A Christmas Story

Once upon a time
not long ago
I lived for others
whom I did not know

One Day
during Christmas Time
I decided to give of myself
not knowing this would be the last time

I marketed both far and wide
to try
to make Christmas
in a child's life

Most were honest
yet it was unfair
how much I did
It felt like no one cared

Till it was
it came time
to hand gifts out
line by line

I crossed them off
and boxed them up
shipped most
delivered some

Where this story goes array
is when I contacted local families
to say when I would be by

There was a chance
to pass
if life had changed

But there I was
a small bag in hand
with gifts for 2 small girls
I do not recall their names

Yet I do recall
driving up to a newly built home
with nice new toys left in the snow

A flat screen T.V box
propped up by the garage
and gift boxes
spilling out of the trash can

Yet they signed up
for Christmas gifts for their children

I remember walking slowly to the door
shaking my head
Feeling my heart sink
further than ever before

That day I was  taken advantage of
and it burned
and then it scarred

Even though a few years past
I feel it now
ever so much more

Thinking of those
who are really in need
and the others
that conceive that they are deserving

Most of the time I look the other way
or wait for God to call out my name

I have put feeling for one
on the back burner for now
maybe forever

Until someone can show me different

Even as I type now
I feel taken advantage of
used, and even abused
by the false hearted "needy"

I wish I knew how to fix me
but the way I see it
is simply I see

Saturday, December 18, 2010


I cannot believe it has been 5 days since my last post
I guess Christmas finally caught up with me
Along with never ending baking
After all it is Christmas

I have thought about recycling my posts from my closed blog
but then idk?

So much to be said for startin' a new

I plan on picking friends even more carefully from now on
Not wearing my emotions on my sleeve
and baking more for fun

Merry Christmas

Monday, December 13, 2010


Rather Tonight,
I sit here in my boy short and tank top
eating shaved ham on wheat thins
Sippin' on a diet Pepsi and
I finally can breathe

Christmas program part deux
The wee dude was a wild beast
I feel exhausted
and I have so much more to do before my head hits the pillow

I have to admit
I walk around in my underwear
I eat snacks, preferably meat late at night
I am an extended breast feeder
and my son is sleeping in his crib for like the 5th time in his life

I am tired
and the 4 loads of laundry
are cursing at me
calling me dirty names

I hope tomorrow comes slowly

Sunday, December 12, 2010


Okay so there I was drivin' and we have this corner that
must be a hot spot for the local beggars
cause this one woman ran up with her cardboard sign
and then all of a sudden
another woman jumped out of the bushes
and ran to the corner holding her cardboard sign
Then, THEN
they stared getting in a verbal fight
wafting their signs in the others face
Bopping each other in the face
with their sign of beggary
all the while
I laughed
and thought if that have that much stamina
maybe they should try for a job?

Today I was called ma'am
by a young man half my age
although I thoroughly appreciate the politeness
It kinda made me feel old,....

My wee dude ate his 1st french fry today
he is in love

Thursday, December 9, 2010

I am Trying

I have to admit it
I am not sure that I want to
but maybe if I do
it will be my step towards recovery

I  after many attempts
am still not in the Christmas Mood
4 batches of cinnamon glass candy
about 100 chocolate truffles
and 3 batches of fudge
have not moved my soul one bit
rather a notch on my belt
le sigh,....

I wish the songs that I have forced to fill my ears
would bring me to a place
of Christmas Time
A Place of Jingle bells and smiling  faces
Yet I find myself shoveling heaping spoon fulls of cheer down my wee throat
Praying that Joy will soon be here

Now my final attempt starts now
I will make my grandfather's favorite cookie

Even though the thought of being away from him
during this season
makes me weep
like a lil' child with a scraped knee

Boo for me

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Monday, December 6, 2010

Apply Within

I am looking to add to my gold collection
Golden friendships that is,..
I might have someone in mind

If you are
and generally in a cheery mood
Then I want you!
To Stalk
er,..I mean Support ;)
If you like communicating
and don't mind offering a kind ear
and in the midst of it all
can  and want to call on me to be your ear
Then I definitely want you in my life
If you desire the constant stroking of your ego Than I am a shoe in
and visa versa
So If you rock and wanna rock with me
Apply within

Sunday, December 5, 2010


Every time the Hub passes the T.V. Treat, he grabs a handful
The Tylenol and Ibuprofen have kicked a 103. fever's Arse
I made fudge for the 1st time today and the house is still standing
I made a second batch of fudge with a candy thermometer and didn't burn myself
I am making ham and cheese melts with garlic Texas toast
I washed, folded and put away 6 loads of laundry
I have backpacks ready sitting by the door

Nener Nener nener
I Win!

Saturday, December 4, 2010

Holy Thoughts of Thankfull~ness

Nothing worse than a child that lay ill on a Saturday
Yet I thank the stars above for my many blessings
including availability to simple medicines
a roof
and warm clothes

So even though I am on 15 minute sip watch with my wee
frail sick darling

I feel compelled to share the many ways there are to be thankful

I know at my daughter's school they have a "Giving Tree"
We took 4 children
and got them a gift
"Those have the least gave the most"

Yet there are more ways
a gentle smile,..
opening a door
seeing someone fall and coming to their aid
Blessings we all have
but do we use them in the way the Good Lord intended us to?
Many of us are very aware of our gifts,being of this earth
but do we forget that our talents are just as valuable?

Let us have open eyes and hearts to give of ourselves
Of our gifts, or of our talents

( I am super gifted in clearance shopping, and one of my many talents is making a penny stretch further than ever thought possible)

I am thankful my daughter has taken to the ibuprofen finally
I am thankful that I get to hear how much she loves me after I wash away
the accounts she tossed upon me
I will always be thankful

Shouldn't be,...

but is,...
Christmas has put a
rather foul taste in my mouth
and I am not happy about it
Boo,.. back to baking I suppose

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Define Me

I am Not the Trophy Wife
Nor do I wear stilettos in the snow
I no longer Drive an SUV
Or go to Pilate's
I wear just a touch of makeup
cover girl I think
I like My North face
I know the ladies at Starbucks by name
I do Not wear a wedding Ring
I don't own my home
I just got a Green mini van
and I drive it like an Suv
I drink diet
and like my steak medium rare
I am a self taught baker
I curl my hair
I like to dye it black
I like people to like me for me
not what they can get out of me
I am a fierce mother
I believe in accountability
I believe in love
in fairy tales, angels and God
I hate olives
and temper Tantrums
I have been married  for 9 years
and I still like my husband
My favorite movie is the sound of music
I believe in giving to the poor
define me,.......

Monday, November 29, 2010


Yeah you,..
listen up
no down here
Mother Nature
you see that
Nope,..not a smiling face
it is my butt crack
Just thought I would share
like you did
just 2 weeks after I traded in my SUV
to get a mini van
we got record snow fall
I got stuck
more than once

Sunday, November 28, 2010

A Deadly Sin,.. or shopping?

I feel in the days of 2010
Black Friday has quickly replaced
Or for a simpler math equation
Black Friday = Gluttony

don't believe me?

In most cases people overspent
because it was a "good deal"
Bought something they didn't need
or even want
because of the price

Black Friday
has infected the once beloved and cherished
Thanksgiving day
Instead of one counting blessings
They count the ads online  or in the paper
Instead of focusing on what they should be thankful for
and in a quite way
replaying the year to evaluate how truly blessed they are
They are instead making lists
and checking them twice
and figuring out where they will stand in line at 3 am in the morn

Then as the doors are opened
people who just made peace and a turkey
shove and push to get where they are going 1st
They rejoice in a  hypnotic fashion and dance on to the next store on their list

This is gluttony in it finest

Black Friday or even Cyber Monday can be done right
but people gotta get a grip
on themselves, their checkbook, and above all the Christmas spirit

Please tell me how 50 presents under the tree
or a huge T.V
is going to make you anymore whole, than the day before?

Just as you might sit across a man
who is gorging himself in such a way it makes your stomach turn
with more and more plates being presented
you think, does he really need all that food
OMG, that is disgusting
You try not to look but you cannot help your self
stare at a man who has created his own demise
Stuffing himself without care

This man is a glutton

Black Friday and him are best friends

Simply gross.

Saturday, November 27, 2010

Shhhhh it's a Secret!

I am in the Christmas mood
I am oozing Christmas Spirit
My Tree is up with care
If I had a chimney they would be up there
I am hummin' to all kinds of Christmas tunes
I've wrapped gifts
and made my DVD
now there is only one thing left you see

Shhhhhhh,... it's a Secret
she is hosting SSS
and this is my second year
but this is an xtra special year 4 me

So in the past
you wrote about what ya got
which was fun
but this year is even better!!!
You write about what you've sent
All givin' in' such ;)

I was hoping my package would reach my person on Black Friday but no such luck
cause you see , I am tracking it!

So Now I get to Highlight what I got her

In an oversized diaper box, size 4 I believe

There are chocolate candies, resse's
and wrapped up with care
with a jingle bell
are a vintage cookbook
that has a very special meaning to me
Plus a Christmas card with $5 bucks to Starbucks
Then you have the travel Coffee Mug
filled with espresso chocolates

I hope she will enjoy,..
I know she will

I bet you are wondering why I gave this person that special cookbook
Well, it has a story
that I know she would appreciate
It came from my grandfather years and years ago
in mint condition,..
it's actual value I am unaware
But the recipes inside are just wonderful
takes you back to a place before the net
can you imagine
when it seemed easier to get along
and as  far as the reason why
Because this Lady deserves it and will care for it only as I know she could
she will embrace the value more than any antique collector

Happy SSS

Friday, November 26, 2010

Black Friday

Black Friday
Is like having an affair

You get swept up
turned on and
talked into, quite a lot

All the while you know it is
and all the above

Not  A FAN

Thursday, November 25, 2010

Happy Thankful Thanksgiving

In so many words I cannot find
the right words where happiness lies
Focused on family and food
I feel I am in incredible mood
Even with commercials stabbing at my eyes
knowing it is a human demise

I tend on watching the parade
and somewhere
I hope to find
where Thanksgiving spirit is made
I fear it does not lie in the pumpkin pie
nor the stuffing

It is really overwhelming
Seeing everyone
ready to rush though being thankful
Focused with dollars signs sparkling in their eyes

I like a good deal
as everyone does
but before it gets lost
in the hustle and bustle
Sit and be still
bow your head and count your blessings
and with hope
Thanksgiving will live on

 Have a Happy Thanksgiving, and May you be blessed with more than just your pocket book holds

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Thankful 101

An extra insight into my heart and humor

I am So Thankful

Like One Hundred and One ways, Ya know!

1. For disposable Diapers
2. Pencil sharpeners
3. Awesome Cook Books
4. Recipes online
5. Free Blogger Site
6. The ability to read
7. I own a Computer
8. I have no Cavities
9. I Have 4 Children
10. Private School
11. My 6 yr old can read
12. My 8yr old reads at a 5th grade level
13. My son can Run
14. My 4yr old has a great imagination
16. Playhouse Disney
17. The Gap
18. Gymboree
19. Starbucks
20. Chocolate
21. Honey Bunches of Oats
22. Yogurt
23. Peanut Butter
24. I have an Oven
25. I have a smoke alarm
26. I have to bathrooms in my house
27. I have a roof
28. I have a good working vehicle
29. My kids have nice clothing
30. I have a washer and dryer
31. I have a garage
32. I have the best landlord in the world
33. I have use of my legs and arms
34. For Wipes
35. Winter Boots
36. Gloves
37. Snow Hats
38. Jackets
39. Jeans that make me feel good about myself
40. The ability to nurse my babies
41. Faith
42. My mom
43. My Grandparents
44. Cable
45. Internet Connection
46. Immunizations
47. Good Dentists
48. Great Friends
49. Coffee
50. Diet Coke
51. Diet Pepsi
52. Facebook
53. The Children's Place
54. Lelli Kelly
55. Morgan & Milo
56. Hobby Lobby
57. Running water
58. Heat
59. Air Conditioning
60. Fenced yards
61. Pots n' pans
62. Lipstain
63. Nursing bras
64. Toothpaste
65. Toothbrushes
66. Hair Dye
67. Medicines
68. Vitamins
69. Pumpkins
70. Shea Butter
71. FREE Long Distance
72. Free Shipping
73. Crayons
74. My Camera
75. Hot water
76. Hand Soap
77. My Dishwasher
78. Sunscreen
79. Flour
80. Butter
81. Sugar
82. Eggs
83. Salt
84. Beef
85. Chicken
86. Pork
87. Yeast
88. Pasta
89. Fresh Fruit
90. Fresh Veggies
91. Milk
92. Cream
93. Coco
94. Silverware
95. My Great Grandmother's cookie press
96. A comfortable bed
97. My Husband
98. His Income
99. OUR Health Insurance
100. My home
101. The ability to appreciate it all ~ and then some <3


Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Thankful, quick like

Okay so I am sooooooooooo ELATED!!!
I WON!!!
Mrs Fifty Factor herself let me know today!!!
I got a gift card of 100 to CSN stores
and bet your toosh I spent it quick like that
Not without pinning over it for a few hours
I got 3 Red Suit gifts for my kiddo's
and another for my neice
Get this
for some reason I even got FREE SHIPPING
Holy MOLY!
I hit the Mother load!

So as quick as a rabbit
I must be with my thankful message

I am thankful for friends
the ones who listen to you even though you know they have other more important things to do. You ask the same questions over and over needing that reassurance and yet you feel loved. Those friendships that last over the miles and time because they are truly a gift from God. Currently my fav, the friendship you make online with no precursor, just because you both kinda rock like that.

I am So Thankful for my friends
I am Thankful they put up with me, listen to me and above all allow me to be me
Those friends are spilling out of my cornucopia of plenty
and I must get to baking to show them how much they mean to me

May you be as blessed as I feel today


Monday, November 22, 2010


I am Thankful
I have had almost 32 complete years with my grandparents
I had my grandfather walk me down the isle
When I took my vows
I danced with my grandfather after I became a Mrs.
I lived in the same state when my 1st child was born
Both my Grandmother and father took hold of my sweet child
on her 1st Easter at a mere 4 weeks old

I am Thankful
Since I moved away almost 7 years ago
I have seen them at least once a year
I talk with them weekly
and most of the time my Grandfather can recall my voice

I am Thankful
That I feel they have seen me grow into a young woman
then into a moth, again, again, and yet again
I feel they are proud of whom I've become
and they love seeing packages of treats arrive from me at their door

I am Thankful
that at 94 my Grandfather recalls who I am
He can make out my face if I am close enough
and stills remembers my childhood

I am Thankful
that my 85 year old Grandmother
can do most of her cares without my mother's help
That she still has an amazing sense of humor
and is still one of the most clever and thoughtful people I have ever met

I am Thankful
That all four of my blessings
have on at least one occasion have met and been held
hugged and kissed
by the 2 eldest loves of my life

I am Thankful
my children know who my grandparents are

I am Thankful

Sunday, November 21, 2010

Thankful Day 2

As the days have become frigid and the roads caked with black ice, I am thankful for my "new~to~me" mini van. Cannot believe that would ever come out of this die hard SUV queen's mouth. But alas, it did.
I am thankful that our credit was just good enough after a long layoff and a multitude of creditors paying homage at my door in the form of being "served, to Trade in my Beloved Betty (Yukon 2001, 140,000 miles)
It was time, I recall feeling like I was going to cry when I was cleaning her out, we had grown close over that the last 6 years, she was very much part of the family. I especially missed her last night when I made a trip to wally world and my new sweet Gilly slid around like an ice puck. But I know it was divinely guided as ever a car purchase could be.
I am extra thankful that by the purchase of this vehicle, if everything stays on the straight and narrow, we will be able to purchase our 1st home within a year.
I am thankful for all of the struggles because with out them I would not know what it would mean to be thankful.

So now with non 4 wheel drive, non massive treaded tires and better fuel economy, I can travel  a half hour sooner to get my children to their school daily.
( I leave an hour early already, since we live so far away)
Yet I am thankful, oh so thankful!

Saturday, November 20, 2010

Thankful Day 1

A Friend of mine over at the Fifty Factor posed questions on what one is thankful for
I have many things in my basket to praise God for
but I am only going to highlight a few
Starting today and finishing on Thanksgiving
I will share what i am thankful for
Something that goes above and beyond food and roof

I am sooo thankful for the Private school my daughters attend. I am immensely thankful that they offer scholarships and tuition on a tier system. I am also very thankful for all of the social responsible invitations they offer the children throughout the year. Like a monthly can food drive for the local food bank. A once monthly collection of recycled items. Currently I am most excited about how the 2 schools they attend have taken on building an orphanage in Uganda. I am soooooooo Thankful.

To put into perspective I will highlight the principals portion on of a weekly newsletter that is sent home to the families. "Next week we will celebrate Thanksgiving.  In a season when the overflowing cornucopia horn-of-plenty is used to symbolize thankfulness for our many blessings. we might consider if our children understand what "Plenty" really means.  Even if we aren't wealthy, most of us can afford a lot of the conveniences.  Daily appreciation for the commonplace items that create comfort should be a habit.  Children should be expected to say thank you for favors done for them, gifts given to them, entertainment planned for them.  They need to learn to express appreciation.  And, they need to learn when a gift, even if not perfect,  still represents a sacrifice on the part of the giver.  Joy and gratitude are not automatic to a child's life.  Learning to put oneself into another's shoes and to treat others with consideration and compassion are part of gaining perspective on one's blessings.  Theses qualities are learned through example and patience.  They become an attitude toward life that affects our emotional and spiritual health.  During this season of Thanksgiving and Christmas, let us encourage our children to give thanks.  May your blessings be plentiful  this holiday season!"

I Am thankful for the hard work and long hours my husband puts in so that we can continue to offer our children this kind of excel~education!

I am So Thankful

Thursday, November 18, 2010

Santa Help Wanted

My Daughters
all 3 have decided that they
are asking the Big RED Suit
For an American Doll

I am scared to death
that I will not be able to be Santa this year because of the
enormous cost of these dolls
Recovering from a layoff still,
we are not making what we were when we were
originally layed off
Then with only 3 children

I Have never been so stressed
about the"perfect" gift
and I must admit I have some awesome kids
kind, giving, caring, loving
I mean they are kids so they are not perfect
So when Santa
only brings one thing
and this is the one thing they asked for
and I am looking at about $400
with shipping

I have called the American Girl Store
I have been placed on an email list
I have scoured the Internet looking for coupons
and they seem not to exist

I cannot imagine
their faces when no doll
is next to their stocking this year....

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

No readers here

I was once read daily but now not so much,..oh well,.. my fav lady is having a giveaway and you shouldn't check it out cause I wanna win
DO Not Check Out The Fifty Factor

Saturday, November 13, 2010

The Bitter Truth

I am NOT Looking forward to Christmas this year
One major reason is that
the marketers for all things Christmas
have been shoveling their  shit cakes down my throat for the last 2 weeks already
before Halloween damn it
I hate how Christmas has turned into
nothin' but that
it makes me sick
like everyone bypassed Thanksgiving and moved right to black Friday
Which I plan on boycotting

It is sad really with 4 kids all believing in the magic of Christmas
all the while the television screens are plastered with
prices slashed and 40% of this and that

I have only 4 things to buy
As the "Red Suit" Has business to attend to
but I never wanted my kids to think Christmas was all about black Friday, what they want and how much they are planning on spending

I know of a few people who drop hundreds if not thousands on Christmas,.. and really it makes me sick
Not my story, not my life

All I know is that the "Christmas Program" might replenish my tarnished Christmas Spirit,..I hope

Friday, November 12, 2010

My 1st Order!

I cannot believe it
Hours after my middle's birthday
I get a Phone message
from the school Secretary
and she wants to place an order for get this
Not just any cookie
My Shortbread cookies
I must admit they do rock
I even plan on sending my SSS some
but I was shocked!!
Then came the part where she asked me how much they were
I was like wa?
So I did my maple leaf in burnt orange
deep red
and brown
@ 2.50 a piece
plus I threw in a couple on the house

Holy crap I walked away with 15 bucks!
Plus get this
She asks me to be discreet
cause one of the teacher's daughters bakes for business
and she didn't wanna hurt any one's feelings!!
So I did respect her wishes

As I entered  I slipped a bag o treats behind her desk
and went on to the kindergarten room
for my Friday volunteer stuff
While I am stuffing folders n' stuff
My daughter's teacher
asks me if  she could hire me to make cookies for her daughter's sweet 13
I was like Yes, of course!

With all this interest I have been floating names for my cookies
I think I have the perfect name
but I am not telling yet!

Thursday, November 11, 2010


This past Tuesday was a reason to celebrate
my middle daughter turned 6!
and even though Build a Bear drives me up a mad wall
that is where her friend party will be on Sunday
Her Theme Was BARBIE
and She got Barbied' out!
Complete with a homemade cake!

The best part was how the AWETASTIC School
Invites a family member in to the classroom to celebrate their special day
They bring in the child's Favorite Book and get to sit in the "Teacher" Chair
and then read it to the entire class
After that you are encouraged to bring a treat to share
Like the note said from the teacher
"Treats are fun, if there is enough for everyone"

Too Much fun
They sang happy birthday in sign language
and in harmonious tune

I brought in cupcakes
cookie cupcakes that is
(They ask you not bring in cupcakes, because of the mess)
So That is what I did
I am looking forward to my darling's party this Sunday!

Sunday, November 7, 2010


Sundays in my city could be interesting
I could snap a shot of
the ghetto thug kids playing on the roofs of cars
or the freaky neighbor dude who has a wife beater tan
maybe I could manage a quick clip of the next door bother
who decided to put up a makeshift Bright white gutter on a sage green faceshua
but I won't
even though the thought makes you salivate
Instead I will whisper sweet nothings in your ear about how I am a SSS
and I have shopped baby oh yeah
or how we have fall cleaned and created bags of stuff for the less fortunate
but I don't wanna give away any secrets,..
not yet anyway
So I will leave you with this image

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Where did Thanksgiving go?

Have you seen
the "before black Friday sales"
Are they Kidding? no really?
I mean I know the economy is in the tank
and financial desperation have plagued our land
but isn't this all sorts of backwards in stuff?

I am a vintage girl
I love my children
I am a stay at home mom
I have given up every desire to own glitter
to provide quality education to my kiddos
I prepare meals on a budget
and shop with coupons
I only buy it if I have the money and it is on sale
I give of my gifts and talents which are purely homemade
I enjoy making handmade cards and costumes
and above all
I make our small rental, home

So when everyone whom owns 3 cars a dog and 2.5 children
are planning on dropping a grand at
"before black Friday sales"
I am simply shopping sales for a Thanksgiving meal
and treats to take to school
and I am in awe
looking at the tv like a cod fish
doing a double take
and really questioning if I heard right

Sadly it is true
Commercialized craziness at it's finest
Yet I find myself wanting to walk 70 years into the past
to a place where health and joy were rare in fashion

Who cares about the "big toy" that all the kids have to have
just give me hugs and cider

Someone tell my weeping heart
where Thanksgiving went.

Thursday, November 4, 2010

Da Mouse and Everything Else

Running out of their room
my daughters are terrified
they saw what looked like a mouse tail
go under their door
I had to hold back vomit in my mouth
I was like are you serious?
how could that even be possible
I mean I sweep at least 3 times a day,..
there is nuttin left on my floors, counters or in my sink
I think I am  going to be sick
Then they decide that they will watch a movie in the living room
and then screams I guess the efing creature was now taunting them
it was now under the entertainment center
So I go to the garage and get the butterfly net and whack it under there
and that furry plague slides across the kitchen floor
after I whacked it's lil ass it disappeared into a wall
I belted out a scream from the 5th dimension
They were scared to death
so my king accommodated
4 lil bodies and 2 big ones
until 3am
is when I could not take being kicked in the face
crotch and rib any longer
and I carried them to their bed

3 traps were set
and this morn no furnasty's were caught, boo!

In my alternate world
I hand made
hand rolled
hand mixed
and hand packaged up
some of the most tasty treats
for my youngests' school
teacher conferences yesterday

Both kiddo's rocked it
even though the 5yr old was so anticipatory that she didn't even eat dinner
she need not worry <3
I was thanked for my goodies
and my well mannered child
myself the hub and the wee dude
set off to the next school for the next conference
There we were
as the teacher apologized to us
she was like I have nothing to say other than she is wonderful!
Woot, woot
Then she was like
Gosh I have heard about the treats you brought over to the other building
they have been raving
the art teacher asked me if you owned a bakery

WOW, That made my heart happy
2 awesome conferences
and thankful treats

( on a side note, I made a 3 tier cake for teacher appreciation week at the public school,..I spent a lot of time on it,..and would you guess not even a mention, not even a thank you,.. I will never forget that one.)

So now to work on spelling words
decorate a paper turkey
and reassemble my house after I took it all apart and disinfected it yesterday after the appearance of ratatouille


Monday, November 1, 2010

This Is A Must Read

Sometimes I get frustrated at life
and life keeps kicking dust up in my face
but then the rest of the times I realize how truly blessed I am
and I am solely blessed because of my children

After school today my eldest child
who is 8
Poured out her Halloween candy and started shifting through
looking over each piece with care
and making 2 piles
One for her and one for the poor

I had No say in this
her heart lead her
and I was not going to squelch it
two younger sisters followed suit
making smaller piles

She exclaimed with such joy
that by giving away some of her favorite candy
it will make someone whom is less fortune happy

and then as she bagged it up
and prepared it for a monthly can food drive at her school
she said something to me
that when I lay down
and take my last breath
I will hold close to my heart

"Mommy, next year when I apply for a scholarship
I can tell them how I donated half of my Halloween candy!"

Thinking about this
makes warm tears run across my face

The extent of what she knows is little
but for her heart to be so big and pure
I am in awe over her

For the scholarship
is what made the ability for her to attend this school
the only way we could have afforded it
and she plans on making sure she can go next year
all the while doing works for the Lord,..
and I am in awe

Harmony Happens

Amidst it all
Harmony happens

After trick or treating last night
my 8 yr old says to me,..
I think after you go through the candy
we should give half to the poor,...

WHO does that?!?!

MY daughter

where as my 5 yr old is like the poor does not need my candy
then we had a come to Jesus talk mind you

On another thought,
have you seen sister wives?
I love it,..sue me
but umm
where can I sign up for brother husbands?
Ummm, maybe I do not want that
that would be a whole hell of a lot of dirty socks and underwear,...

Saturday, October 30, 2010

Lions, Tigers, and Bears

Oh My!
was Crazy
I Am Surprised I made it through it,...

I left in the morning with 3 gift bags
with treat in each for all 20ish kiddos in each class
3 boxes of 140 homemade cookies
in the car
Dropped one child off in school pic outfit
at the door wit bag o treats and box o cookies
Got to the next school
got the remaining 3 children out of said mom taxi
Each girl had her bag o treats and I carried in the 2 boxes of cookies
Dropped cookies off in classrooms
Dropped preschooler off in her room
Started to stuff Friday folders for the kindergarten classroom
Finished stuffin' folders
went over to Preschool room
to frost 40 Halloween cookies with 19 4 year olds
Frosted cookies with Frosting lickers for about and hour
and said goodbye!
Went to Starbucks
ordered a pumpkin spice latte
Thank you Jesus!
Back to school to pick up preschooler
Home for lunch and "quiet time"
before leaving extra early to attend
3rd grader's 1st half
Halloween Party
Brought the meat, cheese, and cracker tray
the anti crazy, I call it
Arrived @ 1:50
was welcomed by children who gobbled up my treats
They saw the anti crazy and became wild boars
took pics
gave kisses and hugs and was off to the next party at the next school
Arrived @ the next school about 2:25
Entered to make all hearts happy
Received hugs from a very over sugared 5 year old
Packed the 3 youngest in the car after the bell rang
Drove to the next school to pick up the oldest
Made it home with all four wheels and kids

Needed a drink,....
Got Diet coke and a chocolate bar


Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Mission: "Your Special Day"

Part one of two:

I have been bothered.....
and held up
by whimpers
of coming to lunch

but with a wild infant in toe
with a straggler
know as the incorrigible one
it makes
"coming to lunch"
virtually impossible!

So I created a day
"Your Special Day"
They have no Idea
when it is their day
until the morning of
as I drop them off at school

So far I have accomplished
2 special days without a hitch
Tomorrow I plan on surprising my oldest!

All I do
is grab a happy meal
and meet them as they line up for lunch,..
but by the twinkles in
My sassy's eyes
I could tell
it was worth it's weight in gold

Mission Accomplished!

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

It's a baking day

Today is the only day I do not
Have to be in 3 places at once
So instead of watching soap operas
and eating bon bons
I plan on doing laundry
baking pumpkin spice cookies
and organizing a couple kitchen drawers

When it is a baking day
it tends to mean
it is a stress relief day
a someone spit in my latte day
or kill me now, I singed up to do what?, day

Baking is as soothing to my soul
as a dark piece of chocolate
A frothy latte
and sweet cuddles and kisses
from my wee ones

Baking is my stress relief

Drinking lattes and fraps makes my soul sigh

Today after my visit to Starbucks
my incorrigible 4 year old
asks me why I need a coffee everyday
I replied
Because I have 4 kids,..
Nuff said!


Monday, October 25, 2010

Where ever,..

You go
There you are,..

Wise words shared with me
many years ago
While I was running the dance and drama program
at a girl scout camp
(shut up, stop laughing, I was a flipin' girl scout when I was 19)

On our "off" time
The Specials, the activity leaders
would get time to chill in the bunks and so forth,...
And this hippie chick and I were chattin'
I think I was blah blahing about wanting to get away
move to Europe and meet an Irish man,..yummmm
but she kinda stopped me in my daydreaming tracks
when she was like
Where ever you go, there you are
and it hit me like a ton o bricks
I might try to flee but in the end , I will catch up to myself
and whatever I might be running from
It will ring the bell at my front door

Since then,
I know my crap will follow me
or at least linger in the shadows
So now it is about
looking good will carrying baggage
at least I didn't leave it at the airport,...

I guess what I am trying to say
is I do my best to juggle my junk
but sometimes
running away sounds like an awesome idea,.....

but then I would find myself with wind blown hair
and that doesn't look good on anyone ;)

Sunday, October 24, 2010

Sundays In My City?

I have always Seen this
but then I think to myself
My city just isn't that pretty
but just cause the city isn't pretty
doesn't mean my Sunday could not posses beauty

Rather a lucky city to have me on Sunday

Homemade goodies
A mountain Of Laundry
Story Time
At least 2 cups of coffee
Cuddles, Kisses and hugs
of course,....

Saturday, October 23, 2010

Halloween Havoc

Friday I might as well
start getting ready as we speak
I have 120 cookies to make
to split between 3 classes
all a lil different than the others
plus I kinda, maybe might have to be in 3 places at once,...
Like this
Drop one off
go to the next school
drop both off
start my work in the kg room
then back to the preschool room
for their party for about an hour
Then escape for about an hour
back to pick up preschool kid
then home for lunch for wee dude
and the incorrigible 4yr old
back to the 1st school at about 1:50
to drop off treats and hang out for a bit
then back to the other school at about 2:30
spend about 20 mins with them at their party
then go pick up the other kid after her party with all kids in toe,..

Wow I better get baking

Friday, October 22, 2010

Playdates & Playboy

Who ever thought that watching to teeny lil' girls bounce around with happy meals in toe would be grander that any Xrated Show?
Well I am NOT an Xrated girl
So This was simply lovely

I would rather bake cookies for preschool~ Than have a drink
unless it was a latte' then we would be neck n' neck

I would rather playdate~ Than pamper myself
Unless it was a prepaid full body massage with the latte included

I would rather make a family meal for all to enjoy~ Than Vacation alone
No really,....

So With that
I am Back
and in the words of a fearless clown
"I'm Lovin' It"

Baa, Baa

In the back of my car this brisk morn

“baa baa black sheeeep
ave you any wool
yes SIR yes SIR
3 bags full
one for the master
one for the Dave
one for the little boy who lives down the way

Today my mantra shall be
“don’t eat them, they are your children”
No Really,!??!
The future is unwritten, so make sure to spell check ;)

Thursday, October 21, 2010

How Many Sleeps till Christmas?

The answer is 65 days,…
This was only prompted
after an “American Doll” catalog
Entered our home
Shrills and Shrieks of joy filled my house
with ohhhhhs
and ahhhhhs
and OH MY GOSH’s Galore

They pleaded with me to write down their Christmas Wish list just then.

You see Christmas, is done very differently at my house
with 4 children
3  in private school
and mindful parents trying to achieve the “America Dream”

Christmas, is extra special,… not because they are showered with gifts,..No
cause you see, I was an only.
I was showed with so many gifts, I cried!

So typically on Thanksgiving
The kids write down their TOP 5 Wishes
In Order
The 1st Being what they desire to receive from St Nicholas himself
The other 4,..
Don’t always get written down,..
because I would like to think
or believe I have mindful children
and If we ask for more than one thing from santa, how would he be able to give gifts to all children?

So with that
I allowed a pre~Halloween
Christmas list to be written

My oldest who, I might add is very bright
States firmly,
That it is a good thing Santa isn’t all about money,  ’cause these dolls are really expensive,..

Yep good thing

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

My NEW Blog

Is kinda like that shirt.
You know the one you saw in a window
dropped everything
and ran in to try it on
Buying seconds after
It had hugged your body

But then you get home
and you stare at your closet
and you feel lost

How could something so wonderful not fit in
How could it be so estranged

Then all this pondering
all the while your embrace
of this new-found love eases

Now you sit there
and think
do I have anything that will work
can I figure it out
Can I make it happen
Or will I return it tomorrow,…

This is kinda how I feel
’bout my new blog
I tried this on
and it hugs me in all the right places
it just doesn’t work
Like I am use to
but I am going in a step in the right direction

Its like
I was eating a roast beef sandwich
now it is marinated with red and  green peppers
adorned with caramelized onions
placed inside of a monster sized roasted garlic Portobello
ahhhhh,.. that’s the stuff

Who wants lunch?

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Damn you, God!

At first I wanted to write about the human condition and how ugly it is. How when I was at Taco~hell I saw a creature with an “I am an Orgasm Donor” bumper sticker on the back of said car,.. gleaming in the sun was his silver tooth and his mullet danced around his brain~less head,.. even yet that did not make me heave,..yet when I saw a wee~lil’ arm reach up from the back,.. that is when I lost it,..
I was going to write about how  Humans as a whole must continue to evolve,.. because I felt we had missed a few important links at some point
I was going to  write,..
But then I started to feel. Despite all the power inside of me to be a snarky bitter cynical bitch. I couldn’t fight it. The overwhelming feeling,….
Damn You GOD!!
Just when I let go, and am ready to live just for myself
I got a letter in the mail. It simply defined the condition of human that I at once was in love with. Kindness, love, forgiveness, acceptance and the desire to help.  I realized that my head got clouded by all that negative smoke people were blowing up my ass. Just then, the darkened harden scales started to peel free,….
I continued on my drive
When I pulled up onto her. I haven’t felt this way for almost 13 years
It was like God himself was using the young woman on the side of the road. Not only for me but for many to see,.. seeing her changed me.
She reminded me of when I was a  shy 19-year-old young woman myself and God called to me to help. I did not answer his called I avoided him like the plague, until that was, that the pleading became so loud and clear it was like  I could feel his screams through my soul.
That night 13 years ago, changed me.

Damn You God

For making me feel
for making me belive in the love you have for us
and especially for harboring  forgiveness in my soul